Let It Go

I think one of the most important things about life is to make sure that stress doesn't harden you as you get older. It is easier said than done to free yourself from the unnecessary.

I feel like over the years, I have accumulated entirely too much stress in the form of hate and insecurities and confusion and resentment and jealousy and absolute fear. I'm not even sure which one has taken the lead at this point and I'll be honest... I don't think I have ever given a second thought that any of those things have weighed so heavily on me. I am always stressed out and I am so tired of feeling so wound up.

I think my ultimate mission for this year is to learn to let it go.

Stress: fuck it.
Hate: life is far too short.
Insecurities: why?
Confusion: reassess and start over.

Resentment: no one is working against me.

Jealousy: this is the worst shade of green.

Fear: breathe in, breathe out and dive right in to find the source.

I feel like I am slowly being crushed by all of the negativity in my life. By no means do I have a bad life. I really don't and that is NOT my point in all of this. I am simply saying that the content inside my head and the tricks my mind plays on me are absolutely toxic. 

As I get older, I always wonder if there is something I am missing? I feel like the past few years have flown by and have also contained some of the biggest changes for me. Now I am sitting here wondering since when did I allow myself to prioritize stress over happiness? I have some major work to do. Or undo.