Rainy Days

It's raining, I'm sick and I'm watching Sex and the City: The Movie. 

With my cat.

I have been sick off and on for the past two months... and for some reason I feel that the new year is going to bring some magical elixir to restore my health. I really don't want to be sick on the 1st. I simply want to start this year fresh and spritely.

One thing I REALLY want to work on is not stressing out so fucking much. I don't even know where it starts but one minute I have a simple thought and then BOOM! I'm the express lane in Stress City. Even when I refuse to let myself think of certain things, they rear their ugly little face at the absolute worst times.

It is a lot harder to simply push the "fuck it' button, but when it happens:
It. Is. Magic.

All Because of a Post About My Cat

Long story short, I was talking to a friend about the ever long battle of "growing up". When do I cross the line of being "too old" to wear my favorite summer clothes, is my obsession with crafting juvenile,  do I curse too much for my age, is it ridiculous that I still feel that the government is watching our every more in the attempt to secretly sabotage us into using Real ID chips, is it okay that I'm not getting married, is it okay that I don't want kids, do I actually need to get a college degree and all the debt that come with it, what do I do now?!

After many years of stress and many conversations with myself, I feel that it's not that we need to change everything about our lives to fit into adulthood, it's that we need to tweak the small things in our life to fit our ever changing personalities. 

I am not who I was at 8 years old.

I am not who I was at 15 years old.

I am not who I was at 23 years old. (thank god!)

This shit is hard. We have some many people around us showing us how they live THIER lives that it somehow tricks us into thinking that we are behind in the grand scheme of things. 

That's not fair and I refuse to fall for that bullshit.
Marriage: Maybe later
Kids: Not for me
College: I don't need it for what I want to do in life
Body Image: I'm doing just fine

What I know for sure is that ablove and beyond all things, Art is that way I want to live my life. 

In whatever form I find it.

Eye Wonder

Today feels like a mental-wandering kind of day... 

Today I actually got a lot of random shit done.

Whew!! It's only 2:30, I have been busy since about 9 this morning and I still have to go to work at 4 and then go to Matt's show afterward.

However...

 I finally go my blog set up the way I want it. YAY!!!!  It's so overwhelming trying to figure out exactly how you want things. I'm over it and I'm sticking with this set up. 

I got a Super Nintendo on my
6th bday from my Dad and he let me
stay up wayyyy past bedtime
to play it. 

Things I want to do:

-Buy a Super Nintendo and waste all my time playing it.

-Turn my old xmas decorations into graden treasures.

-Throw everything in the trunk of my car away because I'm
never going to take it to Goodwill because it's
all useless shit.

-Get rid of 50% of all of my crafting "supplies"
-Find my cat and scoop her up for some snuggle action.

On Account of Myself

I absolutely love this picture. If you took a little peek into my mind right now, it would probably look a little something like that image and I love that I can finally say that.

I'm pretty excited about the new year. Instead of giving myself a To-Do list in the form of a New Years Resolution, I am simply going to start holding myself acountable. Now, I'm not talking about being better with paying bills and keeping the house clean... 

I'm just ready to plunder the shit out of this life. 

There are too many moments I want to loose myself in to hold back any longer. I am going to reprioritize my stress into a lovely sense of wonder and get rid of this chip on my shoulder.